what's half a cup between friends?

3kg to target weight and the inevitable has happened...

i seem to have become a DD, down half a cup on the old knockers!

this is okay, and a long time coming really... when at my slimmest (pre-20) i was a D/DD so being an E last few years has seemed excessive...

of course it's the last place i want to lose weight! my thighs are still far too big... but i'm working on those with evil squats and lunges and fat burning treadmill...

but it means i need to go brassiere shopping! need - not just want! yey! also bras tend to look nicer in the smaller sizes - tho DD is hardly classed as small, the best bras only seem to go to D...

i had a look online but you really gotta go try them on so to department stores i go (come payday, way too skint for such stuff right now!)

i'm a big fan of boobs tho, so hoping this is isn't the beginning of a massive shrinkage! lol

fat pants

at the gym this week i discovered two interesting things...

1. i lost 1kg some how in the last week, excellent news!

and

2. my blue gym trousers are now too big! ruddy heck - it's the end of an era!

can you imagine... i never thought the day would come but yep think i'm gonna have to pass them to the charity shop for another wannabe skinny b*tch lol

i been going to the gym a lot recently, really loving those endorphins clearly... i think i could safely say i go 4 times a week - any more times than that and i'd be a saint! (which i ain't!)

a friend came along for a couple of weeks and i showed her my programme from my personal trainer.. helped me to work out better as i was concerned about showing her the right moves... also i think i'm ready for another session, the flat tum for the summer isn't going to happen without some specialist help... altho i know really that i just need to do situps every day lol

i met a girl about to have heart surgery while sat in the sauna (i've spoken of the same girl previously as my gym thinspiration!) turns out she had a scar on her heart when she was born and they only realised recently by chance that it was there and had grown in size along with the rest of her so she had to go have open heart surgery on Monday...

it really made me appreciate my health, i mean i do anyway but stuff like that really highlights it huh? Lisa (the heart op gal) was about to start her own business as a personal trainer but it's been delayed a little until she recovers, she's gonna write a journal about her journey back to total fitness and i'm gonna help her put it online so watch this space for updates..

but can you imagine it? i'll be able to hire my thinspiration in the summer for one on one flat tummy action! lol amazing!

new year new motivations

hello friend

well i can't say for sure what weight i am today - too scared to go on the scales post xmas indulgence.. my skinny jeans don't feel so skinny is all! lol

i am back and the gym and trying real hard to detox on the sugar, but as it's in alcohol and January is pretty grim it's tough to commit for more than 6 days haha (that's Friday nights kids!)

i have two goals for 2010 - a flat tum and a peachy bum! TMI! it's sit ups and squats all the way baby! then when i get to a beach this summer it'll be all good and lovely snaps to remember it by!

i bought a fitness DVD before xmas and did it for the first time last weekend... it was really good, and the next two days my thighs were hurting so it mustv done some good right?! i think i'll do it when i can't get to the gym... but i'm trying to go to the gym every other day... the only annoying thing about january at the gym tho is the increase in punters... they'll all fall off the wagon by end of February but they clog up the changing rooms/ showers/classes/ machines i suppose that's where a private gym wins... only ever you in it! but then where's the eye candy?! lol

bon chance to you if you hope to be slimmer in 2010 too, and remember no more biscuits! haha

revenge of the custard creams

so here i am, with a podgy post holiday belly with a tin full of biscuits on my desk very much within grabbing distance!
where did it all go wrong? how did i fall of the no more biscuits wagon?! lol

well i suppose first i was 'on holiday' drinking beer, eating without caution etc etc and then i got a nasty cold - cue: comfort foods a-go-go! mr kipling? how nice to see you after all this time? hehe

i am going to get out my skinny bible and re-read it... just as soon as i get better of course... and then head back to the gym and work those abs!

but in the meantime i can console myself with the fact that my man prefers a cuddlier me...

*hangs head in shame*

holding on to 67kg

so after a very boozy trip to Mallorca and a week of no gym... i have somehow maintained my 66.8kg! excellent news!
i think i need to re-read skinny b*tch to get a reminder on the whole no sugar scene... i've been good recently but i reckon it would help my focus during the next couple of party weeks!
being skinny and being a party girl do not a good pair make!
having said all that i have just eaten a curry! LOL
but it is the only proper thing i've eaten all day! and i went to the gym today!

hints that the biscuits are back

today this happened...

me: (baring midriff for a millisecond) i need to buy a bikini today (frowny face)
boss: are you pregnant?
me: oh my god!
boss: what a lovely muffin top - maybe try a victorian style all in on swim suit?
me: (mortified forever)

the end

i will now weep until i'm on the beach and then hopefully i really won't care!

four fridays til palma

o bugger - there are just 3 more fridays between me and my palma friday!
that means just over 3 weeks til i have to be ready to get into a bikini for the first time in a long time...

having just had a birthday there seems to be a lot of chocolatey giftage between me and my 10stone destination! omg! this is seriously stressful and we all know stress generally leads to higher chocolate consumption! argh!

mind over matter. mind over matter. i don't mind and he doesn't matter*

the thing is once i get to the actual beach i won't care as much (probably!) because i'll be too busy enjoying the sunshine, surf and sangria innit?! but the run up is terrifying i tells ya!

i'd also forgotten how transparent my skin is on my legs - they dazzle! and not in a good way... what a disaster it is to be english and love the beach such as i... maybe i need a year volunteering in Greece - picking up litter on dolphin coasts to work a decent tan that will only ever need topping up! my mum is off to italy for some serious sun time in a few weeks and she'll come back bronzed goddess! jealous? moi? of course! haha

of course one way to rid myself of all these nice birthday chocolatey things is to share them at the office - save myself extra calories and make friends at the same time! it's a brilliant and in no way cunning plan!

so if you find yourself near my desk this week its definitely worth dropping by! haha

*morecambe & wise classic line there for everyone while i panic!

dastardly scales

i was at my mum's the other day and her weightwatcher scales told me that i was just 65kg! that's 10stone 3lbs... not bad at all for my target of 10 stone by my bijou beach holiday in 5 weeks!

but the gym scales where i weigh myself regular tell me i'm 67kg! hello? that's a massive difference! now it was first thing in the morning so you can forgive a difference of a couple of lbs maybe but that's it - so what am i to think?! at this painful stage of the final few lbs it's too painful to keep weighing myself.. and pointless...

but that beach weekend is fast approaching! haha

anyway, i guess i'll assume i'm the lighter! haha

after a break of just a week at the gym (holiday in Scotland actually) i went yesterday and really hurt my thighs doing my new inline lunge - crikey that better be doing some good! my pt says if it hurts it needs doing the most! and my thighs are a trouble spot for me...

trying to be really good on the sugar front this month too, fallen off the sugar free wagon for a while now, but not crazy crazy just slowly slowly which i think is worse long term for badhabit forming... but how can i have birthday cupcakes and keep those lbs off?!

argh!

two fat ladies

i put on 2 lbs last week... boo!

thought i was quite good but i guess these thing happen... it's manageable i suppose but when you're so close to your target weight its a bit disheartening!

i am seriously considering laying off the booze again after a few saucy evenings and not so saucy hangovers recently - all very sociable ofcourse - the cons are beginning to outweigh the pros!

i met a taxi driver who said he quit at 31 because one night he couldn't climb the stairs to go to bed and slept with his gran! that's a funny story but i can see why he decided enough is enough! haha

i dread to think how many calories are in my favourite beers... another guy i met at the weekend said he'd cut out beer and was only drinking vodka and diet coke... an old friend, i smiled in recollection but i just don't like that stuff anymore...

a sober summer perhaps? blimey...

weight wobble

well last week after all that seasonal chocolate i put on a couple of pounds! argh! weight wobble!

but this week after a jolly good talking to myself i'd lost it all again! woohoo!

don't fret - i'm still enjoying the less than useful food & drink 20% of the time just trying to maintain a saintly existence for the other 80% haha

it's tough but getting old means you gotta get vain! haha get down with a bit of self-preservation!

i just wish cocktails were a) less calorific and b) didn't go down so easy! ;)

after my personal trainer session earlier this month i realised how weak i am - so now that stamina is up and waistline is down its time for operation jamjar! haha hopefully in 3 months i'll be far more likely to be able to help out in any stiff jar situation... i'm such a weakling! hehe