oh god.
one week after all festive nonsense is officially over and i've only managed to lose 1lb, which in my book counts for nothing1
and i know the problem...
cheese!
i've been re-aquainted with the evil dairy loveliness that is cheese at various festive events and the pure fat product has gone straight to my hips! haha
on saturday night we busted out the leftover spicy cheese from our NYE do and had spicy cheese on toast and cheesy nachos! omg!
i didn't just fall off the cheese wagon, i don't even know what the wagon looks like! haha
but you know what - its freakin cold and i'm only human and i don't like to waste stuff and we're almost out of xmas goodies to munch on so the future is bright!
hopefully!
i did have some cherry beer at the weekend that i probly shouldn't have but heck it was warming in the sub-zero london temperatures! haha
right now i'm trying to make a cherry tomato and sweet pepper soup...
now that sounds healthy right?!
no more biscuits resumes normal activity asap! haha
Monday, 12 January 2009
Monday, 5 January 2009
new year new pounds
well it had to happen...
i knew i had got away pretty light for what i'd put away over Christmas... 2lbs was not the final figure for chrimbo weight gain - nope, i had a cheese & wine party or two to go to after that initial week! haha so another 2 lbs i did put on!
and with all the festive leftovers lying around the kitchen i'll not deny its difficult to get off the chocolate wagon, however i am back in the groove having took my sorry self to the gym saturday, today and for the rest of time! haha
its amazing how quickly all your good work can come undone! i was xmas shopping one week, in bed with the flu the next, away for xmas for the next and the gym is all but a pipe dream! my personal trainer would not be impressed! but as soon as i could i was back in the gym (Dec 30th actually! haha)
2009 i will be the best i can be! haha tony robbins would be proud! those FOUR Christmas pounds will be gone by the end of.. um, let's see, easy does it... er, February! hehe
now where are rest of those festive nuts... hehe
i knew i had got away pretty light for what i'd put away over Christmas... 2lbs was not the final figure for chrimbo weight gain - nope, i had a cheese & wine party or two to go to after that initial week! haha so another 2 lbs i did put on!
and with all the festive leftovers lying around the kitchen i'll not deny its difficult to get off the chocolate wagon, however i am back in the groove having took my sorry self to the gym saturday, today and for the rest of time! haha
its amazing how quickly all your good work can come undone! i was xmas shopping one week, in bed with the flu the next, away for xmas for the next and the gym is all but a pipe dream! my personal trainer would not be impressed! but as soon as i could i was back in the gym (Dec 30th actually! haha)
2009 i will be the best i can be! haha tony robbins would be proud! those FOUR Christmas pounds will be gone by the end of.. um, let's see, easy does it... er, February! hehe
now where are rest of those festive nuts... hehe
Tuesday, 30 December 2008
xmas belly
so i have a little xmas belly made up of a little bit of festive spirit and niceness such as mince pies, xmas pudding, trifle and many many chocolates including ferrero roche...
but miraculously when i weighed myself at the gym yesterday - yes that's the gym during the xmas holidays ladies and gentlemen! - i had only put on 2 xmas pounds! phew!
that's quite an achievement given all the naughtiness on offer this time of year.. i reckon i can get rid of that in 1 week of 'being good'
my stamina seems to have taken quite a hit tho - before xmas i had a really bad flu bug which laid me out for a week but which meant i haven't been the gym in 3 - eek!
so yesterday's date with the treadmill was a gentle one and i was pretty knackered pretty quickly!
will have to get back into the grrove before i meet up with my zero tolerance personal trainer again in 09!
but i still have another two lots of chrimbo chocs to get thru...
but miraculously when i weighed myself at the gym yesterday - yes that's the gym during the xmas holidays ladies and gentlemen! - i had only put on 2 xmas pounds! phew!
that's quite an achievement given all the naughtiness on offer this time of year.. i reckon i can get rid of that in 1 week of 'being good'
my stamina seems to have taken quite a hit tho - before xmas i had a really bad flu bug which laid me out for a week but which meant i haven't been the gym in 3 - eek!
so yesterday's date with the treadmill was a gentle one and i was pretty knackered pretty quickly!
will have to get back into the grrove before i meet up with my zero tolerance personal trainer again in 09!
but i still have another two lots of chrimbo chocs to get thru...
Friday, 12 December 2008
a sign of the times
i'm embarrassed to write the following sentiment but i think i better get it out there so i can consider the consequences of such an inbuilt attitude!
i'm pretty sick today, i have a cold bug, i'll be in bed most of the day and i don't really have much of an appetite...
so a little voice in my head said 'cool - might lose a couple more pounds!'
that is some fkd up shit!
why did i think that? i don't even agree with that kind of depressing self-harming self-hating BS!
that must be shit i've heard around me!
and if i've heard it and quite rightly dismissed it, what about the girls who heard it and ran with it!
sure i been losing weight - but to be healthier! being sick is not healthy!
but when i think about it i hear it all the time, people seeing weight loss as an upside of being ill! crazy!
my boyf doesn't want me to lose anymore weight and that's ok i just wanna get fit now i've shed the excess i was carrying around my waist and my hips, i feel so much better for losing the weight i have but there is such a pressure on girls, put on by themselves, to be perfect (whatever that is!)
jeez modern life is such a head fk sometimes... i'm glad i wasn't born in 1875 a peasant who lost her teeth by age 20 and died at 30 haha but i think we have our own cross to bear, we make life pretty complicated for ourselves... now where is that Kibbutz i'm moving to! haha
i think i need some broccoli...
i'm pretty sick today, i have a cold bug, i'll be in bed most of the day and i don't really have much of an appetite...
so a little voice in my head said 'cool - might lose a couple more pounds!'
that is some fkd up shit!
why did i think that? i don't even agree with that kind of depressing self-harming self-hating BS!
that must be shit i've heard around me!
and if i've heard it and quite rightly dismissed it, what about the girls who heard it and ran with it!
sure i been losing weight - but to be healthier! being sick is not healthy!
but when i think about it i hear it all the time, people seeing weight loss as an upside of being ill! crazy!
my boyf doesn't want me to lose anymore weight and that's ok i just wanna get fit now i've shed the excess i was carrying around my waist and my hips, i feel so much better for losing the weight i have but there is such a pressure on girls, put on by themselves, to be perfect (whatever that is!)
jeez modern life is such a head fk sometimes... i'm glad i wasn't born in 1875 a peasant who lost her teeth by age 20 and died at 30 haha but i think we have our own cross to bear, we make life pretty complicated for ourselves... now where is that Kibbutz i'm moving to! haha
i think i need some broccoli...
Sunday, 7 December 2008
zero tolerance
with Christmas fast approaching the festive treats are being thrust upon me at every turn - and i love mince pies! argh!
my new healthy eating regime has taken over my life though! i can no longer enjoy the old sugar filled treats of yesteryear because my new detoxed tummy doesn't like it one bit!
i went to a friends the other weekend and was offered a warm mince pie - wow - that's some tempting treat! so i indulged in not one but two warm mince pies! on top of this i had my first alcohol for a month and the two toxic treats made me feel sick! how rude! what have i done? i've ruined Christmas for myself! what am i gonna eat? haha
then at my work xmas party this weekend i was enjoying the gingerbread cheesecake when suddenly i couldn't eat anymore of the tiny portion! forget computer saya no, tummy says no! i have zero tolerance to bad food!
i've created a monster!
well not zero, i seem to manage a bit of the bad stuff despite my new awareness and avoidance of unatural ingredients, but this is a startling discovery!
it can only be a good sign that my body is detoxing successfully if i'm now rejecting this artificial crap that we're all spoon fed in the western world... there was a thing on the news about a bunch of remote people who were for whatever reason thrust into 'modern society' and given meals which made them sick from all the additives their bodies weren't used to...
but i ain't gonna live on watery porridge and bread for the rest of my life - i just didn't expect my body to reject refined sugar so quickly after i cut it down - crazy!
my new healthy eating regime has taken over my life though! i can no longer enjoy the old sugar filled treats of yesteryear because my new detoxed tummy doesn't like it one bit!
i went to a friends the other weekend and was offered a warm mince pie - wow - that's some tempting treat! so i indulged in not one but two warm mince pies! on top of this i had my first alcohol for a month and the two toxic treats made me feel sick! how rude! what have i done? i've ruined Christmas for myself! what am i gonna eat? haha
then at my work xmas party this weekend i was enjoying the gingerbread cheesecake when suddenly i couldn't eat anymore of the tiny portion! forget computer saya no, tummy says no! i have zero tolerance to bad food!
i've created a monster!
well not zero, i seem to manage a bit of the bad stuff despite my new awareness and avoidance of unatural ingredients, but this is a startling discovery!
it can only be a good sign that my body is detoxing successfully if i'm now rejecting this artificial crap that we're all spoon fed in the western world... there was a thing on the news about a bunch of remote people who were for whatever reason thrust into 'modern society' and given meals which made them sick from all the additives their bodies weren't used to...
but i ain't gonna live on watery porridge and bread for the rest of my life - i just didn't expect my body to reject refined sugar so quickly after i cut it down - crazy!
Tuesday, 18 November 2008
the red dress
having figured out that since August i've lost 14lbs i was quite pleased given all my problems sticking with the new regime!
i've been trying on new dresses - red ones in particular - the last coupla weeks cos i have a xmas party to attend in a few weeks but i was having no luck... typical!
why is it you can only find nice dresses that fit when you don't need one?!
so i found a great one online... i go to the store... i find it on the 'buy it before it goes' rail - in my size! amazing! i hotfoot it to the changing room and wiggle may way into this dress, only to discover it's too big?! but i'm definitely the size if not a size bigger than the size on this dress? ok - department stores indulging in a bit of flattery, nothing new, i get the changing room assistant to grab me the size down - which i know is also on the 'buy it before it goes' rail cos i spied 3 and checked all the sizes (astute shopper am i)...
the lady comes back and i get the smaller little red dress around my waist no problem but come a cropper at the bosom... pah!
no inbetween sizes here lady!
ruined.
so i asked my mum if she had any red frocks i could borrow and she had 2 for me to try... one was too big (bonus points from mum there hehe) and the second while looking too small was actually a neat fit! so i have a dress and it didn't cost me anything! hurrah! and its smaller than i thought i could get into - double hurrah!
i've been trying on new dresses - red ones in particular - the last coupla weeks cos i have a xmas party to attend in a few weeks but i was having no luck... typical!
why is it you can only find nice dresses that fit when you don't need one?!
so i found a great one online... i go to the store... i find it on the 'buy it before it goes' rail - in my size! amazing! i hotfoot it to the changing room and wiggle may way into this dress, only to discover it's too big?! but i'm definitely the size if not a size bigger than the size on this dress? ok - department stores indulging in a bit of flattery, nothing new, i get the changing room assistant to grab me the size down - which i know is also on the 'buy it before it goes' rail cos i spied 3 and checked all the sizes (astute shopper am i)...
the lady comes back and i get the smaller little red dress around my waist no problem but come a cropper at the bosom... pah!
no inbetween sizes here lady!
ruined.
so i asked my mum if she had any red frocks i could borrow and she had 2 for me to try... one was too big (bonus points from mum there hehe) and the second while looking too small was actually a neat fit! so i have a dress and it didn't cost me anything! hurrah! and its smaller than i thought i could get into - double hurrah!
Tuesday, 11 November 2008
the festive sprit
so with December fast approaching, parties to go to, dresses to squeeze into etc etc
the idea of the annual festive indulgences is making me plain anxious!
i read back over this blog and laughed at how it was more about my failing to be good than any hot tips on how to stay biscuit free! haha maybe thats for the best anyway - who wants to read about a goody two shoes?! hehe
so with Baileys-filled days looming i wonder if i can maintain my new lighter figure thru the holiday season! mince pies, mulled wine, christmas pud (the dessert not me! fnar fnar) i'm only human! it's gonna be interesting if nothing else*... not to go on but do you know how many calories are in a sip of baileys irish whiskey?! i think you can put on weight sniffing it! haha
actually i'm happy to report skinny bitch tells the truth - i don't like refined sugary snacks as much as i used to - it feels synthetic now i've gotten off the junk and i still crave the sweet things but i find i prefer a banana to a bar of chocolate - which is life changing and amazing! and i'm getting thru a whole lotta bananas! haha
people are so sensitive to any diet different to their own though, probably because it highlights their own guilt about any bad habits, and i wonder how i'll survive the social eating that comes with christmas... i don't want to offend anyone but i shouldn't have to eat anything i'm not comfortable with right? oh gosh... i guess it's gonna be a long month...
*of course i've kept all my fat jeans - i'm not an idiot! in fact i had to go shopping for new jeans cos my old ones are too big now! (listen to me, 'had' to.. hehe)
the idea of the annual festive indulgences is making me plain anxious!
i read back over this blog and laughed at how it was more about my failing to be good than any hot tips on how to stay biscuit free! haha maybe thats for the best anyway - who wants to read about a goody two shoes?! hehe
so with Baileys-filled days looming i wonder if i can maintain my new lighter figure thru the holiday season! mince pies, mulled wine, christmas pud (the dessert not me! fnar fnar) i'm only human! it's gonna be interesting if nothing else*... not to go on but do you know how many calories are in a sip of baileys irish whiskey?! i think you can put on weight sniffing it! haha
actually i'm happy to report skinny bitch tells the truth - i don't like refined sugary snacks as much as i used to - it feels synthetic now i've gotten off the junk and i still crave the sweet things but i find i prefer a banana to a bar of chocolate - which is life changing and amazing! and i'm getting thru a whole lotta bananas! haha
people are so sensitive to any diet different to their own though, probably because it highlights their own guilt about any bad habits, and i wonder how i'll survive the social eating that comes with christmas... i don't want to offend anyone but i shouldn't have to eat anything i'm not comfortable with right? oh gosh... i guess it's gonna be a long month...
*of course i've kept all my fat jeans - i'm not an idiot! in fact i had to go shopping for new jeans cos my old ones are too big now! (listen to me, 'had' to.. hehe)
Wednesday, 5 November 2008
this time its personal
so i got myself a PT (thats Personal Trainer to the uninitiated hehe)
and man he hurt me this week!
power squats... seriously strange positions on an exercise ball... stretches to make you cry!
but hey if it works i'll be happy right?!
i have a few xmas frocks to get into this next coupla months so...
i'm still just over 68kg, which is cool, but i hate that i've stopped losing weight! argh! what can i do to kick those extra pounds! haha
i think i'm gonna quit alcohol for november... this will be over just in time for the xmas parties and may help with some extra pounds... and frankly after the b*tchin hangover i had after halloween i really can't face any of the stuff for a while anyway (hey don't judge me - i was bought a LOT of cheap vodka and sambuca shots and didn't have time for any dinner so i was a goner from the moment i got off the bus in town! haha)
i've been slacking at the gym too last few weeks, need to get back in gear if i'm gonna make my target weight of 63kg...
with the days getting shorter and the temperature dropping i been craving all kinds of wintery naughtiness like hot puddings and hot chocolate and hot - well you get the picture! but while i indulged to start with i gotta pull it back in, i think my dairy went up a bit too so i'm gonna have to scale that back...
my body is a temple after all! did you forget?! haha i did!
and man he hurt me this week!
power squats... seriously strange positions on an exercise ball... stretches to make you cry!
but hey if it works i'll be happy right?!
i have a few xmas frocks to get into this next coupla months so...
i'm still just over 68kg, which is cool, but i hate that i've stopped losing weight! argh! what can i do to kick those extra pounds! haha
i think i'm gonna quit alcohol for november... this will be over just in time for the xmas parties and may help with some extra pounds... and frankly after the b*tchin hangover i had after halloween i really can't face any of the stuff for a while anyway (hey don't judge me - i was bought a LOT of cheap vodka and sambuca shots and didn't have time for any dinner so i was a goner from the moment i got off the bus in town! haha)
i've been slacking at the gym too last few weeks, need to get back in gear if i'm gonna make my target weight of 63kg...
with the days getting shorter and the temperature dropping i been craving all kinds of wintery naughtiness like hot puddings and hot chocolate and hot - well you get the picture! but while i indulged to start with i gotta pull it back in, i think my dairy went up a bit too so i'm gonna have to scale that back...
my body is a temple after all! did you forget?! haha i did!
Wednesday, 22 October 2008
a life changing realisation
as i worked out down the gym today i realised that while my new healthy living plan has been rather successful (baggy jeans, loose belts etc etc) it's not something that i can really ever stop doing... yikes!
no more enjoying cake with abandonment!
no more cocktail binges without a mental note about toxic damage to my insides!
sure i can enjoy 'a' cake and a couple of cocktails between now and eternity but after reading the book that has become my favourite reference in life i just can't seem to shake the whole 'you are what you eat' thing!
what i find strange is that this concept has been around longer than i have been! it ain't anything new, but why did i realise it seemed more true this time around?
i've been worried i'm just a tired grumpy old lady recently but then that must be all the good behaviour haha, no i think i'm just in a funk being dragged down by all the negativity around us right now, credit crunch blah blah blah, hasn't anyone realised that could be turned into a great product? like a healthy oaty biscuit with choc chips? haha
anyways i'm now just over 68kg and seem to have acquired a personal trainer (he literally picked me up while i was doing squats in the gym - how rude! i was a squatting duck! haha) so i'll keep you posted but let me tell you this for nothing - I WILL NEVER GIVE UP CAKE!
hehe
Wednesday, 8 October 2008
seaside diet
so after a wet weekend at the seaside where i indulged in much booze and chips on the pier... what? i was on holiday!
anyways i put on 2lbs which is frankly nothing to write home about so phew! haha
after my fall from grace i've got back on the wagon and resumed healthy eating but gosh after a lifetime of cake its really hard! the only fun things i allow in the house now are peanut butter and honey thanks to their natural flavourings!
and i don't feel so much like i'm denying myself, more like a junkie trying to kick a bad habit! i don't wanna take all the joy out of life but i gotta stop the sugar cravings - they're crazy! now when i see kiddies tucking into all that junk with their little smiling faces i'm forlorn for them! it's such a terrible thing that profits come over health in our western 'civilisation'...
at least i have one thing to smile about these days, with the credit crunch hitting wallets the world over i'm a pretty cheap date as a veggie and on a diet - even cheaper! haha
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