a life changing realisation

as i worked out down the gym today i realised that while my new healthy living plan has been rather successful (baggy jeans, loose belts etc etc) it's not something that i can really ever stop doing... yikes! 

no more enjoying cake with abandonment!

no more cocktail binges without a mental note about toxic damage to my insides!

sure i can enjoy 'a' cake and a couple of cocktails between now and eternity but after reading the book that has become my favourite reference in life i just can't seem to shake the whole 'you are what you eat' thing!

what i find strange is that this concept has been around longer than i have been! it ain't anything new, but why did i realise it seemed more true this time around? 

i've been worried i'm just a tired grumpy old lady recently but then that must be all the good behaviour haha, no i think i'm just in a funk being dragged down by all the negativity around us right now, credit crunch blah blah blah, hasn't anyone realised that could be turned into a great product? like a healthy oaty biscuit with choc chips? haha

anyways i'm now just over 68kg and seem to have acquired a personal trainer (he literally picked me up while i was doing squats in the gym - how rude! i was a squatting duck! haha) so i'll keep you posted but let me tell you this for nothing - I WILL NEVER GIVE UP CAKE! 

hehe

seaside diet

so after a wet weekend at the seaside where i indulged in much booze and chips on the pier... what? i was on holiday!

anyways i put on 2lbs which is frankly nothing to write home about so phew! haha

after my fall from grace i've got back on the wagon and resumed healthy eating but gosh after a lifetime of cake its really hard! the only fun things i allow in the house now are peanut butter and honey thanks to their natural flavourings!

and i don't feel so much like i'm denying myself, more like a junkie trying to kick a bad habit! i don't wanna take all the joy out of life but i gotta stop the sugar cravings - they're crazy! now when i see kiddies tucking into all that junk with their little smiling faces i'm forlorn for them! it's such a terrible thing that profits come over health in our western 'civilisation'...

at least i have one thing to smile about these days, with the credit crunch hitting wallets the world over i'm a pretty cheap date as a veggie and on a diet - even cheaper! haha

off the wagon

a diet lady once told me 6 weeks is all a diet is any good for, cos your body gets used to it and your weight loss plateaus...

so as i popped to pizza express with my friend belle monday night i remembered these words of wisdom and gave myself a week off my new healthy eating! convenient hey?! hehe

then while at the cinema yesterday* i indulged in a ben&jerrys milkshake and a bag of cheesy puffs! haha i'm just hoping i don't fall off the healthy wagon for good!

it's interesting actually, and i don't know whether its refreshed tastebuds free of chemicals or merely psychological, but these foods which i used to crave so bad didn't taste so great this week! almost the opposite -they tasted a bit fake (milkshake) or cumbersome (pizza) which was frankly weird! but the skinny bitches did predict this would happen! those wise ladies... tho the rich tea biccies that have invaded my morning routine once more aren't tasting bad at all! haha

hopefully i won't put on too many pounds while i'm off the wagon but i'll keep you posted as always!

*amazing! everyone should see Grease big screen!

boring bored

i'm a wee bit bored of my healthy eating regime already haha

its only a matter of me finding new healthy things to eat instead of the short menu i've lazily prepared for myself over the last few weeks...

things is i'm feeling good for the health-kick up the ass and don't have any inclination to eat the bad stuff anymore - its just i'm not well read when it comes to all things healthy and tasty...

research will be my friend, but i'm looking fwd to my weekly Friday blow-out haha, one chippy dinner coming right up!

i really need to figure our what to do with lentils... and is there such a thing as a healthy apple crumble?! i need answers! haha

so far so skinny

so a month after reading my new food bible, i'm 68.6kg and counting thats not much since the last drop but its a healthy steady weight loss i'm experiencing... nothing fast and faddy!

i also feel a lot healthier so i think everyone should read skinny b*tch! my boyf has taken to rolling his eyes when i say no thanks to milkshake/ crisps/ pizza in fact anything i deem a bad choice - he says i'm not his partner in crime anymore! haha

i did take him for a burger on Friday night tho - i don't want to be a dull girl and everyone has to have one indulgence a week so i had falafel while he had buffalo... yummy!

but i passed on the chocolate milkshake, hehe

wasting away

so i'm now 69kg - woohoo i'm in the 60s baby! so long the 70s, the good times are here - i reckon i should be about 66kg so i'm trucking on and the people down the gym now recognise me and say ehllo! haha i'm an everyday-er!

i was a little disappointed to discover a pair of new jeans from New York in May have become tent-like round my waist ... now they were big to start with so no there's no helping them!

but while i enjoy shopping for new clothes and a smaller waistline is a really great reason to do so - i'm trying to stop buying new clothes because i have so many already!! perhaps i will fit into the smaller stuff a bit better soon and will still avoid the shops...

i invented a really healthy dinner last week, steamed beans, cabbage and courgettes with stirfried beansprouts mushrooms and peppers, with a topping of worcestershire sauce! marvellous!

beans beans they're good for the heart

the more you eat the more you... well we all know how that ends! but i have been making such an effort in the pulse dept!

and it is an effort - cos if you don't spruce em up they taste real bland!

growing up i ate a lot of broad beans cos my dad really liked them - i must get some for the freezer in fact - chickpeas rock and kidney beans are easy to chuck into tomato sauce but the thing i'm stuggling to replace is pasta... i know couscous is yummy but i only like it sauce free... soup is good too in moderation... but pasta is pasta! i guess i'll just have to apply the rule of moderation to it - my belief is most Italians seem kinda skinny to me anyway! that blessed beautiful people, they eat so well, ice cream, pasta, wine! - and look so good - its not fair!

i have been eating fruit for breakfast for two weeks now and all is well - so i can recommend it! my dairy intake is right down and i've lost another 2lbs so i must be doing something right... well if i didn't lose them in stress over the past fortnight that is, haha

the stress diet

oh my god! i must have lost a stone in stress this last 10 days. moving house is a nightmare!
currently unpacking so having trouble eating proper so went to tesco for some instant healthy fodder like nanas and hummus haha

i was reading the ingredients of everything i picked up including cereals and man there is sugar in EVERYTHING! presumably nothing tastes nice without it! except we know that isn't true so why why why? i need to take skinny b*tch with me next time cos there are strange additives and i'm not sure which ones are nasty - they all sound very unnatural but i have to be balanced bewteen living life like wot it was in the dark ages and being a thoroughly modern millie! haha

i looked for this organic red wine too but could only find one californian one (of course! hehe) and it said contains sulphates and i'm not sure thats allowed... i will have to conuslt the b*tches...

did enjoy some au natural pickled onions though - haven't really had pickled onions ever but i dicovered Barry Norman makes his own from a passed down family recipe and while i ate 3 spicy little gems i had the 'Film' theme I Wish I Knew by Barry Taylor running thru my head - pickled onions with their own theme tune! you can't buy that kinda style! haha

caught unawares

today i ate a chocolate bourbon. despite reading the ingrediants first. no wait, don't look atme like that with pity at even hoping to change my sugar-addict ways! let me explain!



i was up late watching Mary Poppins at the theatre (and very good it was too!) and so this morning tres sleep deprived: therefore low on energy and i when offered said bourbon biscuit my resistance was at its lowest this week!


i am of course disappointed. i've left you down, i've let the skinny b*tches down and most of all i've let myself down.

but i have been to the gym every day this week despite being unusually tired as my body clock adjusts post holiday, so i guess i'm allowed to fall of the wagon once - i'm only human damit! haha



skinny b*tch says don't get caught with your pants down - but its easier said than done, tho i admit if you want to eat healthy you have to be prepared cos the shops sure ain't there to help! they even sell crisps and fizzy drinks at my gym rather than fruit and water?! crazy!



i am currently 156lbs (previously 161lbs) and hopefully will be less in another week!

no deep fried haggis for me

so i was on holiday in Scotland which meant two things: lie-ins and beer! haha

but since i'm trying to be good and change my wrong-un ways i put a beer curfew in place that meant no daytime drinking! haha

and surprisingly it worked!

6pm was beer o'clock and i even went had a booze-free Wednesday to keep a lid on the old calories, but still had a few cheeky ales the rest of the time!

so feel quite pleased with my holiday excesses - in that they weren't as bad as usual! haha

my holiday reading however was traumatising! i read a book called Skinny B*tch which told me to trust no-one when it came to modern food and that a global food corporation would sell its granny for a bigger profit and that means dirty dirty chemicals and hormones are in our food cos it makes their back pocket bigger! how rude!

i was literally agog at how awful and un-natural our food chain has become and it made me relieved to be a veggiwarian! though i do eat dairy and am currently cutting that right back! haha

its all about chickpeas at chez jodes now baby!